found an interesting quotes

i surfed the internet to find some source for my talk... but then i found this...
"He who angers you, conquers you!"
it caught my attention and now i'm worried!

forgiveness

the person whom i desperately trying to get away with called me yesterday asking for forgiveness... my hatred for this guy piled up equivalent to Himalaya, i think.. but yesterday he called just to say he was sorry...

i was quite surprised actually... with his *** kind of attitude that he actually know how to apologize to other people... in a way, i'm so touched.. hee

REVENGE

my dream to meet close friends was ruined by an imprudent guy who ENJOYED bullying other people, inconsiderate and selfish.. luckily that person wasn't the person i know.. if only he was someone nearer or close to me, i'll make sure he'll suffer.. A LOT!!

pilihan antara dua

ikot hati nak yg first choice ni. bleh dikire 70-30% la..
hitam manis. bergaya. tinggi. elegant. body-built really kene ngan citarasa aku la. maklum la athletic.. compare ngan aku yg katek ni cam langit dan bumi jer..
kluar jap hari tu, sensitive and easy to get along with.
background family: nampak macam high-class.. cam akan pilih org yg berada je.. kawan2 aku lak kata if aku ngan die ni, org lain takot nak dekat.. maklumla dah masuk kluarga2 besar kononnyer..
tapi hati dah terpikat ni. cume rasa cam tak sekufu lak..

2nd choice. mmm nampak baik. tak berapa tinggi, family-type. dark-complexion jugak but looked quite okay to me.. esp after some changes to his looks la..
kluar jugak harituh, of course after the 1st choice la: mmmm sensitive gak.. not that bad.. but not that tall.. rasa cam jahat lak aku nih...
background family: cam ok-ok.. rasa cm sekufu.. sesuai la ngan my family background..
to compare the spec from the 1st.. kurang sket kot.. tahap kesukaan: 50-50% kot..

camana ni!!! pilihan mana satu ni eh...
ape pendapat korang eh?
ni gambo2 nyer... plz kasi opinion... onegaishimasu

m o h d R V ( bukan nama sebenar )


m o h d C Y ( bukan nama sebenar )

triple shock within a day

a friend of mine has married without me knowing it.. in fact she stayed just few kilometers away from my house.. and i got the news from someone else who stayed very very far away from my hometown.. somehow, i felt my liver 'atrophied'..

and another good friend of mine has started involved in a serious relationship.. i was once an important person in his life... but i guess it won't be that way anymore.. and i never felt this lonely than ever... what is this??am i jealous that he already found his soulmate?? i'd guess the fact that my place as an important place beside him is soon going to be replaced what bothers me the most.. *sigh* i really dunno...

another person who should-not-be-named, kept pestering me.. asking me to go out with him.. as a matter of fact he asked another person as well... and already went out with that person.. what is this??? am i that cheap??? that he can ask anytime anywhere whenever he wants?? luckily that trade that we had last time was just a trade.. but then why is he so persistent? because he couldn't get me, is it? or it hurt his pride that i kept turning down his invitation? i really don't understand... what is exactly his intention? wakaranai no!!

i really need tons of chocolates to calm me down...

on-call night

my 'kejonahan' is quite a well-known fact among HO..
they sighed when they found out that we will be going to have a night-call together..
just like another night..

the Gynae ward was pretty calm at 4.45pm..
as soon as i stepped into that ward at around 5.05pm.. and landed my butt on the chair in front of the nurse counter, the phone rang. from A&E informing me a new case is going to be admitted. guess what.

my on-call day was welcomed with TRO twisted ovarian cyst which needs emergency laparotomy. arranging for scan, blood-taking and discussed it with specialist.. settled that one.. no case came in..and there i still have a little faith that i'm going to have a little calmer on-call..
so i ran to labour room.. my friend went to pray so i have to take over for awhile.. few minutes later a patient came in.. bleeding PP type IV...
i went 'WHAT???!!' oh no.. clerked, examine, discussed with MO, branulae and blood-taking, scanned, ventilator booked, paeds informed,. settled again.. and when she finished praying, all the work has finished already.. so i left labour room as soon as my friend came.. i went back to my designated ward.. as soon i stepped in.. a patient was pushed to my ward by a wheelchair... and right behind her, there's another patient on the stretcher.. though the stuff nurses blamed me for being so Jonah, and i almost gave up most of the time,.. but i take it as a way Allah wants me to get better in handling the cases.. of course, sometimes i felt so demotivated with what happened to me.. but i believe someday i'll become a better doctor if i faced my fate with Sabr..